you know its really really hard to be happy and get out of a deppresionate phase if your life sucks and every time you feel a bit better it does not take life 5 minutes for something to bring you down again.
5 minutes ago i felt kind of happy for the first time in 3 days (i was listening to music) and was having happy thoughts. then le knock on the door: “could you turn that down please? youre able to hear it on the other side of the apartment”.
FYI: it wasnt loud, it was completely normally volumed music. now i turned it down and i feel like i had to whisper if i had a friend over to now be too loud.
cause im super sensitive to criticism this is really getting over my head now
hahah everythings stupid